Wharfedale Mumbler puts into words the emotion behind her youngest starting school….
September felt so far away, but now to me, it feels like it’s only a matter of days.
It’s the end of an era, my baby is gone, no longer a toddler and soon not even a Pre-schooler and I’m emotionally torn.
Your brother was ready when he went to school, you are MORE than ready… But this time I AM NOT. You are my youngest, my LAST EVER baby and I want to hold on to that for just a little bit longer.
As our next chapter begins I wonder what it will bring, all the fun you will have will no longer just be with me. I cannot put into words how much I will miss you, yes you have been at nursery but this… this feels different.
I think of how much I will look forward to picking you up, hearing about all the new friends you have made and saying “Hello darling, how was your day?” You will no longer run out with pictures of rainbows, it will be reading books, spellings and bloody times tables. Play dates and parties will eat into “our” time- like your brothers, your diary will be fuller than mine!! I know that sounds selfish and I know we will be fine, but I will really miss our “Mummy Daughter” time!!
I learnt a lot from your brother the last time around, I’m now fluent in phonics so I can actually help you to form all those sounds! What worries me most this time around is… will I know when it’s the VERY last day that one of my children will ask me to stand at the window to wave? Your brother grew up so fast, I feel like I blinked and his reception year had flown past!
You have always been confident, crazy and caring and now you are growing up and still, you are learning. I can’t wait to find out what new things you will know, you can fill me in on our way home!
You are so excited about starting school, picking out your new uniform, bobbles and shoes. About being a “big girl” and not missing out on the Halloween discos and all the other cool school stuff your brother has told you about!
I couldn’t be prouder of the “big girl” you have become, so kind, loving, decisive and headstrong (and yes, I know this will haunt me in the years yet to come!).